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Fri Jun 12, 2009, 12:22 PM
The Beginning

But please, come down from that cloud you`re sitting on.
I don`t expect you to admit that you were wrong.
Just wanna know how you`ve been.
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:iconvampyer123: tagged me like... months ago and I haven't had time to get around to doing it. So, I'm totally going to do it right now. But, I'm not going to follow the rules. Check this shit out.


RULES:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.



1. I moved 4 times in the last 10 months
2. I am 6’1’’
3. If I had to choose between clothes and nudity, I would be one naked mother fucker.
4. I work at a grocery store as a cashier, but I leave my register and go do other shit all the time because I fucking hate my job.
5. I think music is one of the most amazing things ever created. All of it.
6. I’m a vegetarian that eats fish, but I think I’m going to stop all the nonsense.
7. I bruise very, very easily.
8. I smoke way too many cigarettes on a daily basis.

AND I WILL TAG NO ONE! EVER! –sticks tongue out at the Man-

Grace Kelly - Mika

Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
I've gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!

How can I help it
How can I help it
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on your shelf?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
I've gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Walk out the door!

Say what you want to satisfy yourself
But you only want what everybody else says you should want

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Walk out the door!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Walk out the door!

Mahal kita.

:heart:Chris

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The End


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fish-fish

Standing with my feet deep in the ground
Was I nothing but a landslide in your mind?
Am I no one until someone calls me out?
Are you just pretending when we talk?

You should have seen me
Keeping watch at dawn

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  • Listening to: My Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson

Guess Who's Back - Song of the Week

Mon Feb 16, 2009, 11:38 AM
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Damien Jurado - Hoquiam
  • Watching: Molly and Chad play Fallout 3
  • Playing: with cigarette smoke
  • Drinking: Camelot Purified Water
The Beginning

But please, come down from that cloud you`re sitting on.
I don`t expect you to admit that you were wrong.
Just wanna know how you`ve been.
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Hey everyone! Jeez, haven't updated in months...

Well, I'd better get back on track then, shouldn't I?
So, I moved back to NC, I live with my friend and her family, and I'm still looking for a job. Its been shit, and to be honest, I've been kind of lazy. I really do need to start doing stuff and really putting an effort out there. My uncle died Thanksgiving day at about 4 in the morning, so, thats how that turned out. My dog is now heading downhill pretty fast, which is never good. And thats all thats really been going on.

In terms of artwork, I've actually been drawing at least once a day. At the moment, the scanner stopped working, but, I managed to get a couple things in and edited. When I can do it again, I'll post more. Just so no one is surprised or anything, I've drawn a lot of woman scantily clad and people smoking and elvish looking people, haha (please, DON'T ask, I seriously could answer you if I tried.) I've also been doing some realism, as you see with You Don't, so, expect more where that came from.

Over all, I've kind of been separate from the world and people in the world, and I really should start getting out there instead of just hiding away from it. I've been thinking a lot lately, and it hasn't really done much for me but help me realize a good amount of things. Either way, here I am.
I'm back :)

Damien Jurado - Hoquiam

Standing with my feet deep in the ground
Was I nothing but a landslide in your mind?
Am I no one until someone calls me out?
Are you just pretending when we talk?

You should have seen me
Keeping watch at dawn

Picture now a car ride through the plains
Where east meets west and only sky remain
Were you faking death to only gain concern?
The cut out lights and signals told us wrong

You should have seen us
Carefree behind the wheel

Lover I am still here breaking chairs
Will I ever be the hero in your song
Or forever in your shadow so unseen?
Trapped between the lines that you write down?

You should have told me
Broken jaw and all
Crippled in your glory
Restless till my death

Mahal kita.

:heart:Chris

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The End

P.S. Bonus Song: Split Screen Sadness - John Mayer

And I don’t know where you went when you left me but
Says here in the water you must be gone by now
I can tell somehow
One hand on the trigger of a telephone
Wonderin' when the call comes
Where you say it’s alright
You got your heart right

Maybe I’ll sleep inside my coat and
Wait on your porch ‘till you come back home
Oh, right
I can’t find a flight

We share the sadness
Split screen sadness

Two wrongs make it all alright tonight
Two wrongs make it all alright tonight
Two wrongs make it all alright tonight
Two wrongs make it all alright tonight

"All you need is love" is a lie 'cause
We had a love but we still said goodbye
Now we’re tired, battered fighters

And it stings when it nobody’s fault cause there's
Nothing to blame At the drop of your name
It’s only the air you took and the breath you left

So maybe I’ll sleep inside my coat and
Wait on your porch 'til you come back home
Oh, right
I can’t find a flight
So I’ll check the weather wherever you are
Cause I wanna know if you can see the stars tonight
It might be my only right

We share the sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
Split screen sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
We share the sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
Split screen sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)

I called
because
I just
Need to feel you on the line
Don’t hang up this time
And I know it was me who called it over but
I still wish you'd fought me ‘til Your dying day
Don’t let me get away

Cause I can’t wait to figure out what’s wrong with me
So I can say 'this is the way that I used to be
There’s no substitute for time
Or for the sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
Split screen sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
We share the sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
Split screen sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
Oh and the sadness
It's alright, it's alright
Oh and the sadness
It's alright, it's alright
Oh and the sadness
It's alright, it's alright



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fish-fish

What a surprise I get stuck in your eyes. I'm tired of being the clown in the crowd. Get 'em laughing but go home alone.

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More News - Song Of The Week

Wed Sep 10, 2008, 10:40 AM
  • Mood: Tense
  • Listening to: Stephanie's ID - Unmistakably Love
  • Playing: with cigarette smoke
The Beginning

My voice has gone to hell
And this is one more sleepless night cause we don't believe in filler
Baby if I could I'd sit this out...
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So, I got fired from Value City. Which I should be upset about, but, I'm not. I hated the job, I came home in a bad mood, everyone was dull and uneducated. I'm better off here. But not better off unemployed XD

I'm working on getting a new job, cleaning my house and finishing paintings all at the same time (because I beat Ocarina Of Time), and I haven't got a damn clue what to do. I joined an employment angency and they're working on getting me an office job (ew...). But, hey, a job is a job, you know. And I have to pay my bills.

In other worlds, my uncle has been found to have 4th degree cancer, he can't be helped and all they can do is put him through chemo and hope for the best. My aunt is a mess (she's the one who was in the hospital during Christmas, and she's just getting better and better), my grandpa (his brother) is unreadable, and we're all worried.

So, yeah, not much else to update on, I suppose. I'll keep you posted on when/if I get a job sometime soon here in the next couple weeks, and on the uncle thing. I know its odd to tell you guys about that, but, I feel like I have to write it down somewhere, you know? And not just in a notebook.

Alright, I'm done. Love you guys, and I'll update some other time. Keep up the art! I'm trying to!

Unmistakably Love

Ooh aah, oo aah
Ooh aah, oo aah

The girls, they all like swim together
In the scrumpcious snow bird sea
We're flying above the vistior
This place place is just too cold for me

And one by one, and all together
And one by one, we fell beneath the pull
Luciously beautiful, unmistakably love
Luciously beautiful, unmistakably love

And when the women jump outside
And when they make their rounds
All their heads turn 'round
Something we understand
And, no, its not who we love
Its brutually just beautiful

And one by one, and all together
And one by one, and all together
And one by one, and all together
And one by one, we fell beneath the pull
Luciously beautiful, unmistakably love
Luciously beautiful, unmistakably love

Luciously beautiful, unmistakably love
Luciously beautiful, unmistakably love

Unmistakably love

Unmistakably Love (Stephanie's Id) [link]



Un an trop 'en retard , un temps de la vie a manqué. Oubliez pas mon nom, belle.

:heart:Chris

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The End



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What If I'm Not Good Enough? - Song Of The Week

Thu Jul 17, 2008, 7:30 PM
  • Mood: Distressed
  • Listening to: Beautiful - Barenaked Ladies
  • Playing: with cigarette smoke
  • Drinking: IGA Root Beer
The Beginning

My voice has gone to hell
And this is one more sleepless night cause we don't believe in filler
Baby if I could I'd sit this out...
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Even though its Thursday.

I feel like I'm not doing something right. I'm missing something. I'm not doing any artwork except occasional things on MS Paint and a little sketch here or there. But, I'm not drawing. Its painful, to be honest. It just feels like I have no inspiration or purpose. I don't read peoples' stories anymore, Molly... I can't sleep until 5 in the morning, I have to spend my time at Value City instead of painting or drawing. Which is killing me because all the employees I've spoken with about their jobs say they've been there for 10+ years. I don't want to be stuck in Department Store Retail for the rest of my life...

I'm sure this sounds lame to most of you, but, I miss it. Painting, drawing, critiques... Living here is great, but, I'm missing my art. And, it almost feels like, without it, I'm becoming useless. This guy named Mark from Art Institute of Pittsburgh called me and almost got me enrolled in some online courses. But, it turns out the school is a For Profit school, and I would have gotten shit for education and $80,000 dollars in debt, and it killed the hell out of my spirits.

I ask myself questions:

Did turning down this school completely ruin my chances of ever getting into an art college that wants me because of my art and not my money?

Do I really have to go to college to get anywhere in my career?

Why does my mind go blank every time I want to paint?

Am I good enough?

Am I going to be stuck in retail hell for the rest of my life? Get married, pop out some kids, and walk down the shoe isles buying my children clothing and shoes with my employee discount?

The only thing that inspires me right now is Molly, because that girl needs a Chris Care Package, and, dammit, she's getting one.

I'm sorry, you guys, I don't know why I even made a journal about this, but... Its wearing on me. I wanted to be incredible, and I feel like that goal is slipping away from me inch by inch. You have no idea how much this is actually scaring me.




Alright, enough of that. Here's the song:

Barenaked Ladies - Beautiful

What if you were not just for show?
What if you were not good to go?
What if you were simply not so
Beautiful

What if you were not thin and tall?
What if you were done with it all?
What if you were not baby-doll
Beautiful

Beautiful
Isn't she?
Beautiful
Paid to be
Beautiful
When I see
Beautiful
Shame on me

Hoping that it's deeper than skin
Open to the beauty within
Scoping out the room's not a sin
Beautiful

Beautiful
And not much else
Not much else going on
No matter 'cause no one's as

Beautiful
Every time she walks in the room their heads all turn to find her
Beautiful
Everything she says I simply say I never mind.
Beautiful)
Every time she sees me checking her appearance
Beautiful
Everyone she sees seems to ignore the whole experience.


What if one day I wake up blind?
Would I go on losing my mind?
Groping in the dark just to find
Beautiful

Beauty disappears
Boredom perseveres

Beautiful
Isn't she?
Beautiful
Paid to be
Beautiful
When I see
Beautiful
Shame on me

Beautiful
Everytime she walks in the room their heads all turn to find her
Beautiful
Everything she says I simply say I never mind.
Beautiful
Everyone she sees seems to ignore the whole experience.
Beautiful
Shame on me

Barenaked Ladies - Beautiful video [link]

Un an trop d'en retard , un temps de la vie a manqué. Oubliez pas mon nom, belle.

:heart:Chris

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Back To Nights Of Rain

Sun Jun 29, 2008, 11:08 PM
  • Mood: Amused
  • Listening to: The hum of electricity
  • Watching: Blue Pac-man Breakdance
  • Playing: with cigarette smoke
  • Drinking: Spit
The Beginning

My voice has gone to hell
And this is one more sleepless night cause we don't believe in filler
Baby if I could I'd sit this out...
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Thats right all. Its time for another update! Good lord its been a long ass time. I really should stay in touch here, but, I forgot the journal is actually an option. I mean damn, I've actually got time now. Go fucking figure.

Well, to get you all who actually read this shit up to date, I moved. I now live in Pennsyl-fucking-vania. Thats right, I moved BACK. But, difference is, its MY house. I bought it with my hard earned money and now I can smoke whenever I fucking feel like it ^^

Its awesome. Its a two-story half house with neighbors who only ever keep their TV on and constantly swim in the backyard pool and an austrailian landlady named Monica. I'm definitely lovin' this.

However, I miss my friends. THATS RIGHT MOLLY, YOU BITCH THAT DON'T ANSWER MY TEXTS! I FUCKING MISS YOU! SO THERE! Hot momma texts me more than you do. And your damn heart is beatin' like crazy in my pocket. For this, I'm sitting on it. How do you like them apples? It has rained every night, Molly-original.

Moving right along. I've got my own life now, and I intend on using it to art up, when I'm not working. And, in the mean time, since I don't have a damn scanner, I'll be looking all over for my USB. That way I can use my camera.

And, just so you all know, I'm talking like an ass and I haven't a damn clue why. Its late, I haven't updated in forever, I'm loving life and I miss my fucking friends. So, thank you, those of you who read this, thank you to those new watchers, I really appreciate it. You've been added to the journal because I want ya'll to be recognized. People reading, check them out. They're awesome. And, I hope to update a lot sooner that I usually do. Gotta get back into the habit. You know, like, the journals you update constantly because shit actually happens.

Ah well, doing what me must. Later days, guys.

Une année trop en retard, un temps de la vie a manqué. Oubliez pas mon nom, belle.

:heart:Chris

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What a surprise I get stuck in your eyes. I'm tired of being the clown in the crowd. Get 'em laughing but go home alone.

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